Sch starts tmr!!!

This is so no fun can.... tmr sch starts liao... ok im not
unhappy with sch starting... i dun mind getting busy
with cmcc but i totally hate assignments... okkaaay...
everyone dun like assignment... who like assignment
pls tag in my tagbox me so that i can give u a good
bashing when i see u next time LOL...

Other than that it wud be ok.... this last term faster
end haha.... then next term after this is where all the
farm starts... *hiak hiak hiak*

ok blog finish le... only came to say tmr sch start and
it have good points and bad points...

ooooo

haha ok i took this quiz on facebook "wat is ur colour"
and it says my colour is green???
And it describes wats about me and theres 1 sentence
"You are a fun-loving person who is... healing"

LOL im like oooo wat shud i say... LOL im green yeah
green...

Hols almost over...

Alright its midnight... im a lil moody right now... Bcoz
of lots of things... some of u will know the real reason
but im not saying it out... There are other reasons...

1 of them is..... sch is starting.... my holis is not great..
In fact, this is the worst holiday of my life but it will all
just past and become history... Frens that tried to make
me happy this holiday, thanks you all yeah u guys did
make me happy... But u know after that it all goes back
to the point and stupid thoughts take over again...

Another reason.... sch start means work work and work
goshh lucky its just for a month plus... i like to be busy
BUT not with sch work yeah... but since its the finals i'll
really study... no more relationship no more distraction
lets go for it... Though i wud really give up anything for
this rs...
Cmcc lets get busy this term yeah... i will participate in
everything~~ heee

Didn't really have this feeling for quite some time... I
used to have it during my sec sch life... Everytime holis
is ending, just gets moody... But this is the first time since
i came into poly... awww

Wish eve will be happy.... yeah i know she is... But always
happy. I have gave up on hope alr... let everything goes
according to fate... wish that her next rs will really be the
correct one coz she have been looking for the right one
for so looong... hope that she wont get hurt or cry so much
like her previous rs including mine... I gave in all i had and
i cant take all out... thus i will still treat her well whenever
she wants me to... though i think she will totally forget abt
me when she go into another rs... u know thats human,
tends to forget about other things when they are like so
high and happy or something... But when ur sad, u will
always know who to find... who will the be the one that will
climb out of bed at midnight to do anything for u...

yay being moody sucks coz it makes me thinks alot and wont
have the feelings to do anything... even plying games or watch
some nice movies cant help...

HAHA drunk??

i know my msn pm say im drunk LOL.. but actually im
not... haha just that i drank abit just now~~

it all starts on christmas eve... ok its christmas day coz
its midnight when it happens, i was watching show in
my room i think is "kang xi lai le" then my bro came in
with a wine glass... Then he tell me to try it and says its
milo... LOL obviously its not although the colour looks
like it... Then i drank and i was like OMG illl so not nice
cannn.... Then he went back to his room and after awhile
i start to think the liquor not bad LOL....

Then just now i went to pour some on a glass and drink...
Its called Baileys liquor i think... i realised its 17% LOL!!
i first time drink and i drink 17%... but after tat few mouth
im surprised i dun feel anything just that my throat is hot..
haha cooooool...

Super missing eve suddenly... haha just miss her face miss
her smile miss her voice miss her hug... thats all heeeee~~

Only loners get stuck at home with their msn during XMAS!!

YEAH im 1 of the loner... u guys where not happy...
LOL im laughing but IM not happy haha.... I wanna
be out there party-ing... come oonn...

this is damn boring... seeing ur frens schedules is so
tight they take 3 days to celebrate christmas BUT
pathetic me dun even have a date haha... only can
blame myself all my good frens is NOT SINGLE!!!
all zhong se qing you go out with gfs and bfs... haha
if its me also do the same thing so cant blame cant
blame...

I swearrr... from the next holiday onwards i wont be
like this at home almost everyday... roarr i miss the
night outside... so peaceful so nice... i now thinking of
sitting by the beach at night haha joke...

new year is coming... after chinese new year all the
moneys come in... great GUYS feb holiday we are
having chalet alright.. CMCC chalet.. next year gonna
be fun =P
Freshies will be our fun wahahaha!!!!

After reading one of my frens blog... ok shes like emoing
the post says things like how does it feels when u looked
so forward to celebrating ur birthday with ur loved one
and suddenly something happen bla bla bla... Like got
work or something...

After i read... I am like i totally understand ur feeling
alright... How much u tot it will be the best birthday ever
like u are flying in the sky then suddenly ur wings just
gotten ripped off by ur loved one and u drop down...
that totally hurts like hell.... The impact will be quite big
according to how much u look forward to ur birthday...
i super duper looked forward to my birthday and xmas
this year but my wings was taken away... So i totally
know how that feels...

May be not celebrating ur birthday is the best thing coz
u wont look forward really... Hope everythings gonna be
fine when the new year starts... xian ku hou tian... may
luck fall upon me on 1st of jan... we shall see...

oh and noelle is right... di jiu ye.. after that i didn't dream
of eve.... though i hope i dream of her tonight haha...

Today i have nth to blog about.... so just blog about
wat i tot about and figured out.

Have been lieing on my bed and recalling times that
was really wonderful... Realise the small lil things a
guy can do to care for his gf... May be his gf wont
even notice but one day when shes doing the same
thing i am doing now, lieing on the bed thinking through...
she may realise all the things that have been done for
her and understand how serious u are towards this
relationship...
A guy doesn't have to act when hes in a relationship...
he wants his gf to know the true him coz they have to
be tgt most of the time... All the lil things that u will do
for ur gf will be done automatically... Like when u see
her sitting down, u will care for her and push the chair
in for her... When u sees that shes feeling cold, u take
out her cardigan and help her wear it...

I've learnt that i miss out so much lil things that i can
do for eve... too much that im starting to think i've took
her for granted when we are tgt... And i've also recalled
the thinks she did for me... Especially when im sleeping,
she always make sure i slept soundly... I can rem exactly
all the details of her face when shes asleep like lots and
lots of pictures making into a video... sometime when i
am watching show and laughing my ass out... it will just
appear out of no where.... Looking at her face when shes
sleeping just make me smile... smiling at how adorable
she is.... Just wanna hug her tight and stop at that second
in life...

Ppl learn from every relationship they go through...
When we are in a relation... we are like caterpillas just
eating and eating non-stop enjoying the never-ending
love we are being fed with.... when the relation comes
to an end... we become a pupa... hiding inside the shell...
learning our mistakes and healing our wounds... When
we are finally ok we break out from our shell and turns
into the butterfly... coz we learn from our mistake and
became something more beautiful.... its a whole process
of a relationship...

Im not crying when i write this post... just filled with
tears in my eyes.... typing everything that came to my
mind.... once again, eve is really so lovely... oh ya and
ytd is the 9th night i dream about eve... if tonight again
means 10th le....

heehee im back home.... today slacked at home did nth

then suppose to meet noelle, yl, rj, jaye at tanjong pagar

at 5.30... so i left house at 4.45...

when im on mrt i sms noelle where she is... Then she

replied "Haha, novena nia. Will late la, lol!"..... Then my

train suddenly said "next stop, newton~"

WHICH means im at novena!!! LOL i replied noelle

eh i also just reach novena... so she told me shes at green

seat and tell me go find her... i realised i also at green seat

which means we are close... so i stand up and went to find

her sitting at a corner seat.... haha

THEN theres more... she took out a packet of cookies which

look like this

OK it looks nice la is hp cam abit cui ok... theres a note
saying " DONALD. Stay happy Lor! i know i very good~
anyway, happy xmas! :D "
WAH she made for me loo.... ytd she still say she learn
bake cookie... actually is made for ppl de.... haha not
only me got la but noelle said she only give 10 ppl AND
im 1 of them..... GAN DONG DAO~~~~
All i can say is noelle damn good can..... haha i dun even
have anything for her.... next time next time i give u.

Then after everyone reach tanjong pagar... we head
towards the music sch there where they are going to
have their auditions for a compt.... after all registered
and sang finish.... we came out of the building and noelle
is like non-stop complaining to her bf she nvr sing well
bla bla bla Lol... and jaye is like omgggg can u stoppp~~
Haha we went to dhoby ghaut eat the dunno wat laugh
quite alot..... NOELLE 失恋无罪!!!!!!!! roarr.... haha
relacs luhhh u nvr sing that bad okkk~~ got zx meh...
even if zx also not u wan de mah... so its ok alright!!!

then went walking ard in PS with rj and yl then home we
go~~~ oh we was saying we must have alot activities
during the next holiday.... CHALET IS A MUST!!!! WE
the new batch of committeee demand for a chalet!!!!
LOL.... haha noelle is sweet but eve is more SWEET!!!
sry luh i hua chi LOL lil things eve do can make me very
happy alr....

ok thats all for the day ba think nth is gonna happen for
the rest of the day..

OHOHOH and i rem how sick i was telling rj and yl how
much i wish for something to happen.... SOMETHING
BIG~~~ as in really BIG~~ lol ok not that big just wan
may be something happen receive a call at late midnight
asking me to go where or something... know wat i mean??
or like zombies attack LOL... just something that can
make the holiday more things to do.... i know u guys get
wat i mean haha....

OK so guess lata nth big will happen... though i wish
something will happen.... of coz better be good things...
ADD ON ADD ON the cookies noelle make is NICE de
cannnnnn......OMG its nicer than famous amos!!!

For Noelle LOL

im gonna have a post just for noelle, my good fren
=)
shes damn good and nice can.... like wat i said in my
last post i reached home very early ytd and is damn
bored.... i watch movie using my com till 9+ and here
comes noelle.... LOL she entertain me by singing for
me.... so sweeet right?? she sing me happy birthday
song in 3 language loooo...
then after that she sing me the song 祖我生日快乐...
But only 1/3 of the song awwww.... But after listening
to her singing.... i suddenly very miss eve de singing
can.... zzzz
but noelle very good luh.... oh ya and today afternoon
i say i hungry.... she draw macdonalds for me loo... got
drinks got burger got fries.... haha not like shifu they
all so bad nvr pei me.... LOL jk jk...

ok moral of the post.... be good frens with noelle wont
regret de....
haha note this post is i ownself write de noelle nvr
force me to write LOL!!!

im back....

haizzz.... sry i start my post with haizzz but i must
admit all i can do is haizzz now.... y??? hmm coz I feel
a lil dissapointed.... not bcoz my bday is not fun, i
guess its becoz i wanted more...

Let me explain.... during october and early november..
i tot that my bday is gonna be the best this year coz im
going to just celebrate with eve.... may be only at her
house or go outside... But as long as its with her its gonna
be the best... Then when it reach late november... My
dream was smashed and i only wanted a celebration with
my cmcc frens including shifu, eve, yl, xiu.....
Then december came.... i changed again and tot that i
will get to celebrate with my frens in the afternoon and
go out with eve after that....

OK so it came to today which is my bday.... we went to
The Cathay and ate western food.... they shared and bought
me a present.... which is a bag... then they also bought a
small piece of cake LOL lucky its small if not i sure vomit
after i eat it alllll alone.... then we went shopping ard for a
while..... i know that eve is going to find her fren lata... so
was alr abit down.... then after some shoppings shifu and wj
asked if we wanted to watch movie.... xiu and yl said no
money and of coz eve say she going find fren... so after a lil
more shopping shifu and wj dissappeared.... eve says shes
going alr so she gave me a hug and went.... then its me, yl
and xiu.... of coz we have nth to do and decided to go home...
Yl take the diff line as me and xiu so we seperated again....
me and xiu take the train towards marina bay, on the train i
smsed eve.... haha she say she guilty and say if i really very
bored can go find her.... but then she said shes with vernice
who i know and vernice 2 sis who i dont know.... they gals
doing shopping at far east y shud i go and make them have
less fun.... so i still decided to went home...

haha im home so super early.... hoping that something will
happen lata and someone ask me out or something... wish
something just happen BCOZ my bday is not over yet....
haha but guess nth will happen.... not looking forward too
much or even greater dissapointment will come....

Alright i have nth to say anymore... may be another post
lata during the nights....

LEARN ppls...

ok i happen to be reading blogs and realise that this
fren of mine wrote a simply good paragraph of things
that i wan u ppl to read....


To have good friends that do not mind to help you when you are faced with problems in your life is a fortune, a very great fortune indeed. However, these friends might be the people you did not care about when you were in the peak of your life. These friends that I am talking about definitly includes your partner in life or even the two people who have been there for you since you have been born. I personally feel that it is really difficult to not take things people always do for you for granted. The care and love keeps coming till you even forgot to say a simple "Thank you", till you even complain that you are not getting enough attention, till you even compare them to others who just happen to "poke" into your life. I'll do my best to treat these people even better day by day because I know that one day, I might not have to the chance to tell that person how much I also love her.


this is especially for eve.... dun compare anyone that
just appear in ur life to the ppl u alr have by ur side...
its very hurting and dissapointing for those that alr
cared about u for that long... Dun tell me u know this
bcoz u simply dont know... Anyway she dun have my
blog she wont get to read it.... alright ppl... do learn
from it and keep it in mind coz its really really a simple
but yet meaningful thing....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to myself!!!!

YEAH today, december 15th.... ITS my birthday, im
up early blogging... going out lata with shifu, eve, yl
and xiu.... didn't ask wat we gonna do... I leave it all
to my shifu to decide....
oh i know i said eve wont be going at the previous post
but haha she can come le so abit change of mood lo....
But she told me tuesday she got chalet.. which made me
worried abit... but shes a grown up gal she can take care
of herself....
hmmm its still early and i dunno wat to do.... yeah thx
ppl that msg me happy bday.... PY, yl, junjie.... eve told
happy bday on msn alr... the rest haven ba its too early
wahaha.....
i shall try to blog a long post when i come back tonight...
depends on how much things we do.... and did we take
pictures.... alright i shall stop... tonight~~~

New hair~~

Im back home.... today i went out in the afternoon
with my parents.... Went to get my hair done..... First
time dye my hair.... So the colour takes damn long to
"eat" in.... its brown alright although its cant really be
seen... it will get clearer after a few more days.... then
highlight by bleaching it.... takes as long as dye-ing...
that can be seen more clearly haha.....

Then went with my family to east coast there eat
dunno wat restaurant i forgot... But its western.... it
have really nice food alright.... i ate lobster luingine....
its pasta with a lobster on it LOL!! Then we went
parkway to shop abit coz my bro wanted to change
his phone but in the end nvr... And back home looo.....

Oh ya.... and when im still at parkway.... Shifu tell me
eve tmr not going to my bday celebration coz she
quarrel with her mom and her mom dun wan give her
money.... say too ex.... Auntie nvr give me face sia ='(
and this information given from shifu totally spoiled
my mood... Imagine ''''' 1 of my most important woman
in my life isn't going to my bday celebration'''''
thats so freaking sad can..... haizzz nvm loooo next time
then bring her out... haizzz indeed not a very very great
bday after all....

OK im back from mel bday celebration.... hmm nth
much we went bugis eat then lata walk abit... Then
sit at TCC and talk and drink.... of coz got a cake for
mel.... haha nth much to say la...

Pictures i took.... i anyhow take de LOL

time passes slowly~~

haha i decided to blog now coz i have nth to do...
And going to blog again when i come home tonight
after mel bday celebration...

ok i have nth to say.... but haha ytd night was the
4th night i dreamt about eve.... Y she appear in my
dream everynight... but those dream are no
bad dreams so haha its quite great... though nth
much happen in the dreams la... Dun anyhow tink
ok............

hmmm suddenly make me very curious... about
dreams.... we dream of ppl we keep thinking of???
or its just happen to come out... i tink its wat we keep
thinking of coz its our brain mah... haha my shi fu
appears in my dream too just not as often as eve...
who else i cant really rem only can rem they 2.... haha
and of coz my mom also alot.... hmm let me say some
rou ma de hua.... eve and shifu is other than my mom
the most important woman to me.. LOL... as a fren?? or
a sister?? or an adviser?? haha really very important!!
rou ma right?? But i really mean it~~
=P

i shall blog again tonight....

Blog b4 i sleep

ok.... im wondering something... hmm its about eve
nth much just thinking how important is us this
group of frens to her.... haha coz realised she went
out with another group of frens more than us...

but she assured me she dun have dun wan us just
that diff group of frens have diff purpose... And i let
her know tat if she has any trouble... Other than
her father... i will be the first to chiong there no matter
wat if she bother to let me know first la... Also told
her i wan to see her smile to me more like ytd we went
out....

Oh i know i shudn't but i also wondered... wat if 2 group
of frens and she have to choose 1.. which group will be
chosen??? of coz i dun expect any answer haha coz its
like very bad... Then i even wondered further.... wat if
its me and ron that she have to choose... which one a
better fren??? i dont know and i dont wish she have to
choose... i hope ron can stop his act, stop like targeting
me alright... i dont even know u... and u dont know me.
may be thats his character... but i dun like it coz its
simply guai lan.. u dont know how much i have hate u
but bcoz i dont know u im trying to be frenly alright...
dun appreciate it its ok...

Alright i have blogged wat i figured out and yet to
figured out today.... haha hope my blog can help some
frens in trouble coz it alr helped some... not help la
but let them know theres ppl with the same thinking
like them and can always talk to me... HAHA
off to bed then... ermmm ok im alr on my bed...
off to lala land then...

nth much for today

ok its a boring day again... im stuck at home so
bored.... play maple awhile... play facebook wan
go out also dunno go where.... Bored like hell LOL
wish everyday got something to do outside not
at home....

ok so im thinking wat to do next

This is more like wat i wan can....

Haha today went out with Shifu, Eve, Xiu, Yl....
hmmm go out with 4 gals, shud i be happy????
Lol we went to bugis to eat... Then shop... Then
went to TCC to relax, drink and eat abit... My
shifu pangseh us at ard 6 and went home...

So the 4 of us continue our shopping at bugis street
and i bought lots of things for evelynn haha... I
shud not and will not say i wasted my money coz if
shes happy its all worth it... =P

Then we went our seperate ways... xiu and yl went
home, me and eve went to city hall and eat chicken
rice~~ Then send eve home and take cab home...
Eve is so cute and adorable can.... ok...
Wat i wan to say is this is wat i wanted mah.... thats
the way arhar arhar i like it arhar arhar....
LOL im nuts!!


OK my shifu is like emoing now... i wan pei her...
blog again next time~~

LEARN from this!!!!

OK why issit like this??? Always like this.... When
one is outside having fun they always tend to forget
about the ppl that is worried about them... SMS
also dun reply.... just wan them to assure their safety
also cannot issit... Then u call them, they freaking
come angry with u.... WATS THIS....

MUST they only LEARN the feelings of it when
they meet the same stupid situation... They think
we just sms them and then we go do our own things
and forget them then lata sms again?? Ya the first few
msg is like tat but after that we will be like idiot sms
alr sit there or walk ard worried, thinking of all
possibilities But guess wat, all we can think of is negative
things!!! Then we try to persuade ourself of positive
things but it is totally cmi....

THINK for the ppl that is worried for u can.....
LEARN to stand at their position la...

ok may be u guys really forget or too busy to reply
but at least do something about it rem theres ppl
worried about u no matter wat u doing....

PPL pls learn from this post alright

JEALOUS!!!

OK im freaking jealous now and i cant keep it in me
coz i will explode.... so im blogging it...

Y issit everything other guys do is so sweet?? And
wat i did is like forgotten?? Issit becoz its taken of
granted or its just remembered but not mentioned...

Or im not even comparable to these guys... Not even
on par.... Thats y have different treatment?? Or issit
i think too much??

OH great i have fallen into a state of confusion once again...

4th day of my holis.....

Wah siannn laa....
was suppose to go out with eve and yt today.....
BUT due to some miscommunication.....
the outing is canceled can....

its the 4th day of holiday..... And i did nth!!!!
Ok actually i did something let me tell u guys wat i did

Firstly on saturday, im bored the whole day at home
until 7+ i really cant take it anymore and went to find
jj at causeway point... we like practically did nth and
walk ard till 9+ we meet up with melissa and we head
to JE.... we sit at JE mrt station and zuo bo again till 11.30
which is when all of the people going to standard chartard
shud meet...
Lets fast forward.....
OK then we went to standard chartard, report change clothes
go to venue and we slack there till dawn then start working..
haha forget about the details... i can only say damn those
100 plus....
Then i went home at ard 1+ WHICH note its monday
afternoon alright and i nvr sleep, my mom came home and
bring me to the chalet where my whole family is and we
live there for a night... OK thats when this blog is created..
coz im hell bored at the chalet, and i play maple with frens
through the night..... next day check out of chalet and
home i go....
And thats how it all leads to TODAY...

ok may be some of u may think my holis isn't that sian after
all BUT i think its that that that sian can.... super sian....
dunno wat i can do now

hmm... Boredness??

Haha im bored so im just going to type random things for this post
didn't went out today have nth to say about...
Bored at home... play maple LOL

OH actually i did went out, and i just came back
hah but only for that 10 mins... went to get my dogs back from grooming
hmmm nth more to say then
I will just go have a dota game now
=P

Siannesss!!

Currently i am at dunno where de chalet, somewhere in singapore la...
ARH har some where near east coast... ok...
im super bored..... Everyone has slept but guess wat~~
i just woke up HAHA....

hmmm.... guess everythings is ok now again??
May be theres no chance for us...
But wait who knows wat will happen in the future..
Im going to just wait.... but keeping it all to my heart....
At least theres a very great memory that will still makes me laugh whenever i think about us..

OK dun talk about that part le.... ... ... .......
but i got nth to talk about le HAHA
sian Sian and SIAN is all i have for my holiday now

My thoughts??

zzzzz...... i really tot i could talk to her like normal, like b4...
But im just so stupid i says the wrong stuff.. wth
I tot tat everythings gonna be alright again and i can happily past my bday....
Now looking at the situations.. I guess not.....

Im an idiot?? I really didn't wan things to go like this....
Just wanna be happy having a best fren like her and live on....
GOD wats so hard about that??
cant freaking get wats my brain is thinking, sometimes its like just acting on his own...
Wat happen to me?? arrr nvm im alright....
Im gonna wait!!