My thoughts??

zzzzz...... i really tot i could talk to her like normal, like b4...
But im just so stupid i says the wrong stuff.. wth
I tot tat everythings gonna be alright again and i can happily past my bday....
Now looking at the situations.. I guess not.....

Im an idiot?? I really didn't wan things to go like this....
Just wanna be happy having a best fren like her and live on....
GOD wats so hard about that??
cant freaking get wats my brain is thinking, sometimes its like just acting on his own...
Wat happen to me?? arrr nvm im alright....
Im gonna wait!!